I am not very good with words but i still wish you all the love and support i can give from afar. i am going to send you adam's cd this weekend for sure. maybe a little prairie will calm your soul. ( ;

Ari- *Hug* trust yourself. You need to break the cycle and only you know what will make you happy. I, and everyone else on this thing loves you and supports you. Perhaps, you need to get the fuck out of your house? Where do you go? Just keep moving. In life it's not what you do, but how you do it. You can get through this ari. seriously. You don't have to fight, ari. That's a lie. You don't have to let it consume you. I don't know what the answer is, I don't know the recipie to help because I still haven't figured it out for myself. I only keep moving. Keep moving, and if there is anything I can do lemme know, I am here, (although, I wish i could be there).

Ari, you must keep going. The race is not done, and if you stop running it now, there will be no chance to start again. Please keep running your race of life. I am idealistic and optimistic, I admit, but that has helped me weather the storms of my life. You must find something so simple and so pure to take joy from, and start being happy from there. See the whole world anew through one sunset or one kind act you do for others. I know one kind act you have done, you have been my friend. Focus on that, and let your wounds be purged. Let them be healed.