Yeah amanda, that sucks that you're not coming back, but good luck in the nursing school stuff. I'm reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest right now and it's FANTASTICAL GREATNESS! Yeah I also started reading some of Sometimes a Great Notion, Pete, but I stopped reading it to read Cuckoo's Nest. I never knew you were a jealous lover Pete. I'll have to watch my back from now on. (For more reasons that one...hehehhe....sinner) haha. our computer is in my sister's room at my house, and she has this Pooh bear that's funny because he hops up and down, but if you lay him down next to something it looks like he's humping it. sorry just some juvenile humor... Apparently (this is going to sound really weird) I have developed a fascination with poking my nipples.....and I do it unconsciously. when I walk around the house without a shirt on, my mom or my sister almost always say, STOP PLAYING WITH YOUR NIPPLES, and i go oh and didn't even know... sorry more random details. Speaking of hobos, I think I'm gonna go wander around the fields of Clifton today and strap my guitar on my back and go write some songs.... so long everybody.

Hi guys. I have some bad news, I am not going to be coming back to knox to study with you all. Instead I am staying here and get my ad in nursing. It is cheaper and quicker this way. Plus, knox doesn't even offer a degree in nursing. I was really looking forward to living with all of you, and I am really sad about all of this. I am glad that you were going to help me quit smoking. My ex boyfriend is going to help me out. He and I are talking about getting back together. He was my heart and still is. I get to see him next weekend. He lives about 2 hours away from me, but we still keep in close contact. I had some more strange stuff happen to me. There is a guy at work named Nick who I went and hung out with the other day. We got on the subject of names and I found he has the same middle name as me, but it is spelled differently. Then I found out that his ex, who he is getting back with, is named Amanda Rae Long. Before I was adopted by my step-dad my name was Amanda Rae Long, it is now Ruiz of course, but that is just freaky. And, she has the same cell phone message as I do. He and I can't stop laughing and being freaked out about it at the same time. Anyhow. I promise to come visit this year. I already told some of my best friends up there that I would come up any weekend they asked me to. I am really sorry. I was looking forward to living with you guys and camping and everything else. Keep in touch.
~ME~

james trafffficant supposedly had his government-payed assistants work on his boat... just one of the many offenses he is accused of like taking bribes and being mobbed up and lots of good stuff like that. i say he is innocent. A crucial witness in his criminal trial later admitted that he was pressured into lying in the courtroom by some peoples. It's all so corrupt it's scary. It's just too much of a coincidence to be real that the one outspoken congressman out there just HAPPENS to be the only congressman to be kicked out since the civil war. Pete wants to go back to the fantasy land of college and see all of you soon. Pete's brain is atrophied from underuse in new jersey. Pete lives his whole summer in a trippy, self-induced, dark world where the blessings of solid objects, heat energy, and light cannot penetrate. Hey, does anybody know when all the rest of us are supposed to report for our intellectual duties? isnt september 12th a thursday? Dont classes ususally start on a monday? "anticapatory self-defense" is not only nonsensical and scary but potentially deadly to many thousands of people american and arab. Don't bomb Iraq! And this is coming from a right-winger remember. If i caught my husband cheating on me, i'd do the goddamn same thing or i'd eat my hat. (keep that in mind Adam, honey) I thought Carrie liked her housemates and had lots of fun with them. What happened? Till next time, goodbye kids... and remember the words of the great Jonathan B. Draeger...(Ken Kesey)... "Man will do away with everything that threatens him with loneliness--even himself."

amanda what day are you flying in? do you know if we will have food provided? yes i am still going to training and i will have a rip-roaring time if i have to force myself to enjoy it.
i just got home from illinois and it is so cold here compared to there. i like it. ( :
people are just crazy. how could anyone do that in the first place? let alone call it an accident. also that texas guy seems pretty creepy, i vote to stay away from him.
can i get in on this cigarette destroying binge? that would be fun. ( :
i can't wait to see all of you at school again, i am looking forward to seeing you amanda when i get there all early for training. see you soon. adam don't melt. ( :

Okay I just lost what i wrote but here we go again.... Hey can anybody fill me in on what this Traficant guy did because I'm kinda in the dark as to what his whole story is. I read something kinda scary in the paper yesterday about terrorist defense actions and stuff. The Secretary of Defense was talking about Iraq and stuff and he said that an attack on Iraq would be justified as a "anticapatory self-defense" measure. DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL?! Doesn't self-defense in the very nature of the expression imply that another person initiated the attack? I found it scary because they could use that justification to attack pretty much anybody. I thought it was a cowardly way to skirt around the fact that the U.S. might be aggressors in a war on Iraq. I read something else really crazy yesterday too. There was this woman who thought her husband was cheating on him so she hired private investiagtors to follow him. Turns out, the guy was cheating on her and the private investigators told the wife that her husband was at a hotel with another woman. The wife found the husband at the hotel and it took TEN employees to pry her off of her husband and to throw them both out into the street. The wife then got in her car, with her 16 year old daughter in the passenger seat, jumped the median on the road and ran over her husband THREE TIMES. The private investigators also got it all on video tape... AND THE LADY IS TRYING TO SAY THAT IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!!!!!! How stupid can people be? It really amazes me. Well, I must go. So long.

i was once a child
my path wound through the wilds of space and time
each twist and turn so enchanting
that the path seemed straight
and true as could be.
but now my eyes gaze ahead
and see nothing but forks in the road
and my consious mind does not work
as fast as the time that slips past ever faster
i am thinking and wondering and drowning.